I can skim some of that only-semi-coherant rambling but maybe it sounds like the problem is you gotta find stuff to whine about everything, I don't know? Maybe your opinion on life is the thing that's being demade, and you should really do something that. Think more positively about stuff.
"Xenogears on Wii" Xenogears was not on Wii nor PS2, maybe at least get the game names right while it seems like you're looking for shit to complain about.